I held on tightly as I peeked out the corner of my eye at him. He was so freaking fine!! I mean damn! I smiled internally and kept it pushing, but I couldn’t get him out of my mind. I didn’t think I could be affected like this anymore.
We had been together for years. It was a good relationship. It was a solid relationship. We blended quite well. Them the sturdier more solid partner, me the flighty vibrant one. Folks would see us together and I could feel the little bit of envy. Not to mention, you talking about a work horse, took care of me through thick and thin, night and day. I was happy. I was settled.
Then I ran into him again at the store. Next thing I know, we have connected. Touching him sent tingles throughout my body, eyes so bright, quick on the trigger and so fit and firm. Turned me on, but I couldn’t….could I?
The affair started quite innocently, touch here and there, a bit of time alone where we got a bit more physical. Things were getting out of hand and I didn’t know how to stop. I loved who I was with. They understood me and took the time to make things better. They stayed on the upgrade. Why would I, at this age and stage of the game – decide to take the wild and free route? What kind of example was I setting for my daughter? It wasn’t broke – so exactly what was I fixing?
Funny about these 40’s, they have been more eye opening than my 20’s ever were. I have been on a roller coaster of feelings, activities, life cycles, and then some. I feel the need to burst out – to just whirl around out here in the world in full color, more magnificent and sharp than I’ve ever felt. Being ‘safe’ is not where I want to be right now – I want to be on the back of a motorcycle with a fly leather jacket, or riding a horse along the beach in a white see through dress, or wrapped in a custom Michael Jackson silk scarf driving along the ocean in a convertible.
As I rounded the corner, looking for paper towels, there you were. I had told you we couldn’t see each other again – I just couldn’t….leave…like….that, yet you were following me. You came behind me and ran a smooth part down the back of my neck. My entire body tingled. Your eyes were so clear, I could see you looking at my soul. Then and there I knew, there would be no silent dinners with you. There would be no missionary position with two pumps and we’re done. I saw us smoking a doobie, naked on the couch with a bottle of Boones Farm and a Rick ross Video – I was so incredibly turned on – I didn’t even feel myself telling him that I needed to leave – I needed to go and explore what this other had to offer me. I would come and get my things later – because if I didn’t get this feeling taken care of, I would explode!!!!
The love we made was incredible!! It was so powerful you went dead immediately. Soon we worked out a pattern and now we can go all day and night. You rock the leather outfit on a daily, I like the way you carry pictures of me around and call me your ‘chick’. We can’t keep our hands off each other. My friends feel some kinda way because I walked away from all that I had known about security, but I don’t care because right now – THIS IS WHERE I WANT TO BE!! I AM ALIVE! I AM A WOMAN! And I LEFT…
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