Good Morning! Well the title says it all. This is where I am this rainy morning in Georgia. Now bear with me because I go through this sometimes. I am in a space where I am feeling very alone. Not lonely, but alone. Cliche’ I know but sometimes it gets like that.
I try not to put alot of stock in the whole horoscope or even personality tests that are available out there, but it is what it is. I’m a Gemini and also a Yellow. This combo right here makes for one confused social cookie, lol Lately I’ve been feeling a bit bottled up about all the things I enjoy in my personal life. See I have all kinds of things that I do and I talk about on a daily basis, but there are some things that I just haven’t really connected with folk on. I feel that they entertain me cause it’s part of the package but it’s not really something they are looking forward to. So at certain points I just close up.
Lately I’ve been getting it out by blogging. I’ve started my THIRD blog and basically even on these I am spilling forth because I just can’t keep it inside any longer. So now I have this blog. A Blog for my MJ thoughts and a blog now for my Scrap Booking. Will I keep it up? Who knows but I need the outlet.
I’m just all jumbled up in my head right now. I have this manuscript all printed out and I intend to get it completed and ready by January 1st. It’s my December Project. There are sooo many things popping off in the world of MJ that’ I can’t even keep up – in my heart I don’t think anyone is really interested and I am a Super Fan so that complicates things, lol I am still very much excited about my scrapbooking, but I don’t really feel anyone is interested in that the way I am. Maybe I get too interested in things.
There’s this whole world that I live that is full and robust, but then there’s these back rooms that only I enter and sit in. If I could sit in front of ONE PERSON who’s eyes really light up when we talk about MJ, it would make my day – really. Someone who has memorbilia or enjoys looking at it. Someone who knows their way around Ebay and enjoys looking at that stuff. Hmm I will continue this line of thought over at the MJ site. This is looking like a cross pollination for all three blogs isn’t it?
Even (GASP) Facebook is making me feel some kinda way cause I really try hard not to overdo it over there just to be filling up space. I have these paranoid gemini attention whore thoughts that folks have Hid me and that folks think I’m not in my right mind about some things, lol Well at least I can keep it honest about that.
This will blow over and I will once again create my own happiness and joy within myself with the things that I enjoy BUT that social side of me sometimes needs MORE PEOPLE!!
So I think I’ll go and find me some 🙂
Post Script: Please note that these feelings may be real or imaginary due to the escalated level of Estrogen coursing through my body at this moment.