Wow on that! I am really feeling emotional (not to tears but you know) about my baby turning 16. It’s always been this ‘space’ really far off but now it’s here. All those things that I said would happen at 16 are here NOW! She my only baby and in a few years I have to let her go off in the world to see can she make it on her own. Yea that’s a trip. I keep thinking one day she gonna fall in love, she gonna come to me and say she wanna get married – wow. One day she gonna call me from overseas to tell me what she’s doing (cause I see travel). One day I’mm run across a picture of her having a drink.
I was just sitting here thinking for 13 of her 16 years it was she and I and no opportunity at all for father involvement cause he was dead. I remember sitting and strategizing about the type of life I wanted and how to make that happen for her. Getting on welfare so that along with the insurance I was able to stay home till she went to PreK. Moving us down here. Being blessed to have the particular type of skill that I could work regular work hours monday-friday – that was huge, I see so many moms having to work the night shift etc. etc. I was home with her every night. Building an entire world online so that I could stay close to the Brothers and what not and keep the babysitting cost to a minimum. We took trips, she did all the classes I wanted her to do, I worked extra hard to keep the family in her life etc. etc.